Skype calls and other happy things

Happy things have been happening lately, which make the not quitting a little easier than last week.

I cannot articulate how happy it makes me to Skype my brother. He is my rock in this rather turbulent sea, and always has been. He is having such a hard time right now and it is so difficult to see/hear that when I can't be there with him, but he knows I want to be and I think that helps. I find it really hard to be separated from my brother, it genuinely feels like a part of myself is missing. Frankly, I do not give a shit what anyone else says about the fact that we are technically half-siblings because we have different dads. I love my little family, however untraditional we may be, and we certainly do not love each other any less for it. But back to the point. Skyping my brother cheers me up immensely. I am so, so grateful to have such a wonderful man in my life, and my brother means more to me than I could ever express. So while we talked through some tough things tonight, I feel so much better for having spoken to him again.

Also, I have started learning pointe!! I have my pointe shoes and everything now, but I can't sew ribbons on and practice or break them in until I go back to my new class on Saturday and get the teacher to check they're alright. But still, dreams are coming true, and that is always a happy thing.

(AHHH they're mine!!)

I have decided to go back to counselling, which I think is a step in the right direction. During the assessment session I admitted some things that I had yet to fully realise, and the counsellor and I both think it will be very beneficial for me to continue with it to give myself a chance to come to terms with those realisations and grieve for what I have lost.

It's reading week this week! Which means that I have no classes and can focus on doing my next essay, reading the big-ass novel they've set for one of my modules, and use the rest of my time to go to the gym and my yoga class there :)

Finally, David is coming up this weekend so we can have our joint un-birthday party (since we missed each others) and eat cake, drink cider, and play Tombraider all weekend. I am happy about this prospect.

So all in all, things are looking up. Problems haven't gone away, but happy things are helping.